outside, the clouds were rolling by. while inside, we were lazing on sofa's.

i do spend too much of my time, thinking, or planning, or wondering.

maybe of how i want everything to be. to turn out. 

my regrets.

instead of living for this second. right now. 

this second has been a long time coming

and though it passes as soon as it reaches us. in a flash.

through a bundle of them, we can live our many possibilities,

of hope or desire, or a little bit of happiness sprinkled in.

time is magical. and it's there. to heal, to scar, to smile or cry through. 

it will always be ticking on by. and i guess it's a pretty stable thing to rely on. 

it will take away our bad times, while providing us with a new day.

 

today was a new kind of day. i felt free; impulsive; like i could let go of everything, and it wouldn't spiral out of control. 

that i could manage it all.

and my heart has opened a little. 

and i'm starting to feel a little more grounded. 

in a place, that even under all it's mass of crap, might really be quite beautiful.  

love to all my friends and family. you keep me moving. you are all such amazing people. <3