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18.12.10

memories are beautiful and broken.

"You forget all of it baby. First you forget everything you learned - the dates... Pythagorean theorum. You especially forget everything you didn't really learn, but just memorised the night before. You forget the names of all but one or two of your teachers, and eventually you'll forget those too. You forget your junior year class schedule and where you used to sit and your best friend's phone number and the lyrics to that song you must have played a million times. And eventually, but slowly, oh so slowly, you forget your humiliations - even the ones that seemed indelible just fade away. You forget who was cool and who was not, who was pretty, smart, athletic, and not. Who went to a good college. Who threw the best parties. Who could get you pot. You forget all of them. Even the ones you said you loved, and even the ones you actually did. They're the last to go. And then once you've forgotten enough, you love someone else."
*from memoirs of a teenage amnesiac by gabrielle zevin*
the truth is sometimes all you need to hear. 


8.12.10

the world is messed up.

please give me a day of smiles.




5.12.10

there is nothing but endless possibilities.

sometimes i wonder.
i wonder what tomorrow will hold. i wonder if it will be a good day. i wonder how cold it will be. i wonder if i will seem different next year. i wonder if i will love again. i wonder who i can actually trust. i wonder how long i will be here. i wonder if i'll make the most of every second. i wonder if things will ever be like this again. i wonder if things will be like they used to be.

i sometimes think too much.
the future scares me.
but the future keeps me hopeful.