Words, don't touch my lips.

For once, I don't trust myself with other people, and I actually wish to be alone. I don't feel like crying, or shouting or screaming. I don't want to express any emotions. I'm wound up tonight, by a cause that has shed little light on itself, but I'm wound up all the same. 

I feel like wallowing. 

Maybe sleeping. 

Though recently, sleeping is all I've wanted to do. 

I've had a lovely weekend. Full of smiles and love. 

But yet again, I'm not satisfied by it. 

I have a nice few days to look forward to this week. 

But still, I'm not excited by the prospects. 

I can't explain my moods. And having someone close enough to read your thoughts, is both a comfort and a danger. I don't want to scare him. I love him. And he loves me. I believe him. But surely there's only so much a person can take. 

I'm sorry. 

I'm lost. 

You're perfect.

I'm anything but. 

I want to talk to you. 

But I don't want you to listen. 

Maybe sleep really is the best way forward.

i think the sun's rays need to return; the winter darkness seems never-ending.

i have no idea what's going on at the minute.
my mind is in it's mode of termoil.

i am getting wound up by people, hurting people, for no apparent reason.

i have no reason.

but all i know is that i want to be selfsh. i don't want to talk. i want to just be by myself. 

i want to curl up in my bed, in my trackies and complete all my outstanding work.

yes, everyone is stressed. in someway out there everyone is worried about money, or health, or love or work. but for me it's time. and a lack of. i can get my work done. i just need time. i'm working all weekend again. yes, i may have the money, but what has my life dissolved to?

i feel like fun has evaporated. i was told tonight to cheer up. but i don't have the energy. i'm tired world! don't you get that! i don't feel like i have the energy to do another day, yet alone another week before i get a day off.

and to think they say all teens do is sit on their butts all day.
yes, that'd be nice.

and i don't give a damn how stupid this post may be or how insignificant it all is. but i'm mentally and physically exhausted.  so please, give me a flippin' break.